Smile, cry, laugh, sulk, persuade, love, honesty, loyalty, respect, patience - it is that you have taught me. Other people will not feel what I feel. I thank God because God has lent you to me for you teach me all this. Maybe you did not realize that you are teaching me many things at one time, but this is what I get from this relationship :)
In the past, do you remember the first time we knw each other? I added your facebook, right? I knw you because my frnd admired you . I added you. Then you approved me :) But then, in your facebook, you were in relationship with your friend right? Muhd Alep :p After a little while I am not online, a week later I was online, I see you already inrelationship with a woman. Ouch, sad :(
Then, I lose myself again since that time I was busy with my speech training. 2 weeks later I was back online. But, I cnt find which one is yr facebook because I forgot what your fb name -.- I was looking for you but unluckily i cant find u . So I just let the things pass. I was not looking for you more afta that . Until one day, I just returned from a speech contest. I was sad because I did not win the contest. That night I was online, all of a sudden there was a man IM me. His name is Amir Azman. At that time, I was could not recognize who he is. I view all the pictures of him . Oh God, it's you! :)) We IM, then you went to the cafe to eat right? I remembered. Then I left my number for you.
The next night, you called me. That night, you were alone in the room. We were on thephone from 1 am until 3 am. Then we run out of credit. Because of the time you use celcom, but I'm using maxis. Haha. Then, we were so close. The way you treated me,made me felt somthg . I thought you were loving me. At that time, I was loved you. If a day you do not text me, I feel uneasy. I've missed you. Until you come back. But, a few days later, we were fighting :( We had a big fight. Then, we did not contact for a week or more mybe . I dis not hate you bt i was more to miss you :( You left me alone. I cried because I miss you, only God knows . Sigh
Then, my friends called me. She told me, you were find fr me. You called me right but I did not answrd ur call. I deliberately do so. Then, you IM me on facebook, you asked fr my YM. We then YM. You askd fr frgness . A lot of things you told me. Do you knw, when we YM on that time, you were talking about your ex. Then, you said tht you love me. I cried and smiled. Then you offline.You called me. I answered your call. Then we are okay :) After that incident, my love to you becme stronger. You were always say you love me even then me kinda weird because you did not even declare we aas a couple. But for me, maybe you want me to understand by myself . Every day I wake you up from sleep.
However, my joy to be with you disconnected when you losed your self again. Oh God, I am sad. But I still love you and still waiting for you. After a while I just got the news that you were closed with another girl oredy . Ya Allah, only God knows how sad I was . But I stayed strong. I hold my feelings. Every day I cried because I miss you :(( I strengthened my self to open your facebook. I was jealous to see you with the girl. Sad increased when the girl added me. She IM me and say that she will back off from you if i love you. But I'm not the one who is selfish. I just told the girl to take care of you better. Oh God, thank you for making me be very strong at that time :)
That is true that , when God says NO, it means He has something better for us. You came back in my life. Its weird . I did not know why you came back into my life coz I thought you were so happy with the girl . But this time you cme in the other ways . You came and wanted to be my best friend. Jst because there was still love for you , I accepted your request even the pain was still there in my heart. We becme friends. Every day you called me, right? Every day you told me about your problems. I always listened to your problems. We got very close. I was happy. I did not care if you just want to be my friend then.
25th December 2010. Historical dates in my life. Hihi. That night I went out with my siblings. Then you text me. Then, I said I want to go out to find a boyfriend. Then you were jealous. Ouch. I love this! When I was hanging out, you have to ask whether I was willing to be your girlfriend? I was answering yes! I love you 25th december but i love you more Muhammad Amir :)
25th January 2011. A month we were together. I was expecting something on that day.But something bad has happened to us :(But let bygone be bygone right? We are nt perfect . Always make mistake . The next day, my heart returned to normal afte rreading 6 text from you. Thank You God for this.
25th Feb, a few days ago. 2 months we are together. Alhamdulillah. I am happy with the crew Muhammad Amir. Very happy.
Muhammad Amir loved ones, thank you for the first two months of this. Many of the things you taught me:) Esp, loyalty, honesty and patience:) I love you. I will always bethere for you no matter what happens. Difficult or easy, I will be with you. Will always stand in the same place as before, and God willing till forever , Amin :)
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